[Her stomach does similar flips and not the good kind like the schoolgirl butterflies Jill gets every time they kiss. This is a twisting and a turning, as if she expects the worst possible outcome.
Though, as she sits down across from Clive, Jill wonders if she could even blame him for taking that route. There's a mystery to this place, a force they cannot control, and the uncertainty of it all gives good reason to change the trajectory of where they were headed.]
I too share the blame. [She shakes her head and looks down at her hands, palms pressed against the surface of the table.] My hesitation to bring up the topic has not helped ease the tension in any way.
[ The tension. It was always there, ever looming in the back of their minds. And although as peaceful as the outside may have been- how hard they tried to continue about their daily lives after his return- there was always a continuous nag in the back of his mind darkening his thoughts.
Yet as all of it begins to lie itself on the table, there was no longer a need to avoid it. ]
And yet you are the first to address it. That is where my faults lie.
[ He resists the urge to lower his gaze, and instead reaches a hand out to clasp over hers. ]
I have made you wait and wonder for some time, but my decision is still the same. I do not want my fear of the Rifts to dictate the life I wish to spend with you.
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Though, as she sits down across from Clive, Jill wonders if she could even blame him for taking that route. There's a mystery to this place, a force they cannot control, and the uncertainty of it all gives good reason to change the trajectory of where they were headed.]
I too share the blame. [She shakes her head and looks down at her hands, palms pressed against the surface of the table.] My hesitation to bring up the topic has not helped ease the tension in any way.
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Yet as all of it begins to lie itself on the table, there was no longer a need to avoid it. ]
And yet you are the first to address it. That is where my faults lie.
[ He resists the urge to lower his gaze, and instead reaches a hand out to clasp over hers. ]
I have made you wait and wonder for some time, but my decision is still the same. I do not want my fear of the Rifts to dictate the life I wish to spend with you.